The daily schedule, wake up at the same time every morning. The second my eyes flutter opens, light shoots down the optic nerve and into the brain’s biological clock. Stimulating how I am suppose to feel and act that day. But yet feeling groggy and hungover for hours after awake. Curiosity hits, what happens the previous night? Am always trying to wicked away all the problems that happened. And yet it will come back and haunt me. No matter work or life. Things seem never work well for times.
Wondering how come there is such emotional people? Always knew that he has attitude problem but trying to put it aside till that day, I can’t bear it anymore. I exploded that night itself. I can’t stand his attitude, his movement, his conversation with anyone, everything, from top till bottom. I’ve tried playing nice and all but this is getting too much. Not only you did not appreciate the invitation and all you embarrassed me. Have you ever thought of it? I have to convince other to get you there and you are acting like a scumbag!.I bet you are reading this. I don’t fucking care anymore. I used to try to jaga how you feel and all because you always speak like you need sympathy but this is gonna end or should I say it already end? You can go on and act macho. You do that, but never ever expect that I will treat you like always. You asked or it. Things are beyond the limits. You are the one who indebted with me and those that day. Hmph... if only you could understand and look at the world from other point of view or you will stuck there forever.
On the night shift, unless im in karat-ed uni,I will either be clubbing somewhere in kl, yumcha-ing in steven’s corner, staying in my home sweet home, online with peace with my v3000i, giving my body a warm bath, forgetting the quick fix around me and work clockwise. Everyone was walking on eggshells. I know that I’ve been out for a while but for how long?
